About Life and Its Surprises

April 2023 (20:00 hours) 

So life its full of surprises right? ...sometimes our well laid out plan turn out to be the opposite...for example the decision you made in the past turns out to be the biggest mistake though at that moment..it was the right thing to do.

Honestly...my life is so far from perfect.. but i love my unperfect bumpy road.. high tide ... laugh tears .. crazy madness... the ups and down of this one time journey called life. 

A bit story of my own life, I am in my early 40s...unmarried.. but in a relationship with someone who is like a blast from the past but i love him to bits now than ever before...well he used to be the guy i loathed and avoided even to the core i turned down his proposal years ago.. but again...you might called it destiny, fate, meant to be or soulmate...i also dont know if he is the one for me...but all i know is that we care and love for each other and he is the only one who can put up with my craziness (period moment), my ugliness drolls and all of my quirks and my downside and yet he still has the spark in the eyes when looking at me...even after years and years of losing contact. 

I thought my life would turn out like everybody at norm...born, school, working, marrying, having kids, growing old together ... but at 40s something still unmarried, and no kids, honestly i am a bit dissapointed with how my life turn out to be.. especially why i am still unmarried and maybe no kids of my own. 

Perhaps you kind readers said...i am too picky or maybe i spent my past years recklessly or maybe too much planning.. well i prayed and befriended guys since in my 20s or even teenager..used to have plenty of fishes in the seas (guys) chased after me...but none of the guys turns out to be the "one". 

On the other hand the guy whom i loathed and avoided maybe disliked for some years, ended up coming back into my life and surprisingly he turns out to be the BEST boyfriend so far... Life indeed are full of surprises. 

Regrets, questions, thoughs of what ifs i said yes to the marriage proposal to any of the guys who asked in the past....will my life be any happier?  Yes or No, again who can predict the future. 

All i know is that, i dont want to marry because someone force me to marry, or for the money sake (if i married for money i will be a married woman by now), as in the past, my dear mom and friends have introduced me to many tycoon's or rich background kid and nothing serious happened, also i have dated some non rich guys, but due to differences in characters, the relationship also doomed to end. 

Blessings